Saturday, March 21, 2009

i'm alone n lonely

i'm soo alone...!!!!!!! i hate when i'm alone...!!! but i cant do anything...

No one can see the pain that we hide,
They're happy for us to keep it inside,
Our fear is our own; they don't want to know,
Why sould we involve them; why should it show.

You live your whole life in confusion and fear,
The need to feel something unbearably near,
Half of you living, Half of you gone,
And inside you know what your doing is wrong.

The thing's that can help, the thing's that may heal,
Are the flame or the blade and the sting of the steel,
The destruction of skin means the death of your soul,
But there's nowhere to run when your living alone.

I feel alone.
Seperate from otheres.
Suffering from a broken heart.
I cry.

I have friends.
They care for me.
But their to busy with their lives.
Am I selfish?

I stand in the highwall not caring.
I watch my life pass by in blurrs.
Turning my head just looking around.
I bleed.

My heart bleeds.
I feel so alone.
I watch people hug and kiss.
I want.

I try to get noticed.
I Scream at the top of my lungs.
No one notices.
I fall.

I curl up in fetal position in the middle of the floor.
I pull my hair gently to see if I'm still alive.
I claw at my skin to bleed more.
I disappear.

My life keeps on going.
But I dont.
I walk like on autopilot.
I'm non-existent.

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